6 years, 5 months and 25 days. Its been that long since I’ve written in this blog, TV Talk with JWalk, the television blog that I created in college to express myself creatively and also talk about what I love the most, television.
It’s not as if I abandoned this blog entirely and went off to write for another publication or something like that, I just stopped writing. I stopped doing what I loved. I know why, and I will never admit the reason to anyone else, but I will say it was the biggest mistake of my life and I’ve regretted it for the last 6 years, 5 months and 25 days. Now is the time that changes!
6 YEARS, 5 MONTHS AND 25 DAYS! Thats a long fucking time! But you know what, I’M BACK!
Back at Syracuse University, I’d be glued to reporting on this blog 24/7, and yes I do mean 24/7 (please refer to my Friday Night Lights post I excitedly wrote up at 2am after I introduced the show to a group of fraternity brothers)! At the time, I never knew what writing, communicating, and social media meant to me. I knew I wanted to be a professional writer, editor, blogger, television pundit, etc; but I was just having fun talking about TV online and with people. When you stop talking about what you love for 6 years, 5 months, and 25 days, that takes a toll on you. There’s a weight on you where you know something’s missing form your life but you choose to ignore it and make excuses to yourself eternally on why you cant just sit in front of the computer and write about whats going on in television. “Job.” “Friends.” “Love Life.” Excuse, excuse, excuse – and it’s nobody’s fault but your own, so you cant even lash out and blame anyone! Ain’t that ’bout a bitch!
After 6 years, 5 months and 25 days, I’m realizing writing is like riding a bike, you never forget how to do it.
I was silenced, I felt like I lost my voice, but I silenced myself. Scared that I wouldn’t be good at writing anymore, scared that I lost my voice, scared that nobody would care or remember the blog. Deep down though, I was scared to open up to be myself and do what I loved to do. Like any scared person, I ran in the completely opposite direction. I worked my ass off for the last 5 years doing that I completely hated and was internally embarrassed about. I knew I wasn’t fulfilling my dream, I knew I didn’t want this as my career, and I knew this was never going to make me happy for the rest of my life.
At one point, you just say “fuck it!” I said “fuck it!” I need to start doing what I love again, and here I am!
I never stopped watching TV, quite the opposite. We’re currently in the peak era of television. New content being released daily, its so hard to keep up!
Back in 2012 as of my last few post, Netflix was still a movie streaming service not yet creating its own original series (their first series House of Cards didn’t premiere until February 1st, 2013). Hulu and Amazon were in the same position, just streaming shows and movies. 6 years later, Netflix is one of the worlds largest creators of content spending up to $8 billion in new shows and movies, while also being a major awards contender. Amazon is spending $5 billion, Hulu is spending $2.5 billion in new content, and both are also major awards contenders leaving the broadcast networks well in their rearview mirrors.
I poured my heart and soul into this blog in college, I’m ready to do it again! I want TV Talk with JWalk to become a brand. A place where everyone knows to come for television news, commentary and entertainment. It starts now with this blog post, and the next one, and the next.
The overall plan on redoing the website, putting out small TV tidbits on social media like I used to, and doing podcast, which is what I’m most excited about! (one episode recorded, being released soon!). I sincerely hope everyone reads, interacts, exchange ideas, and have fun because thats what the idea of this site is about!
6 years, 5 months, and 25 days. Damn, that was a long time but it feels great to be back!